I too had a love story

well it took me a long time to decide the title (whether to use have or had) and the decision was not at all grammatical.I dont know why i am still calling it a love story which has everything except love . It started the day i saw her for the first time.I still wonder what characteristic of her make me attracted.....may be its her simplicity.

I was never been as possesive for someone as i was for her.Even her talking with someone else was enough to make me jealous. Sometimes you know what you feel is wrong but still you are not able to overpower your feelings.she was a sweet and friendly girl but i always expected her to act as a girl friend......and as someone has rightly said expectation is the reason of half your sorrow.

To convice your Heart is the Most difficult thing in life.I knew that she has no feelings for me which she conveyed to me many times.Still it was extremelly difficult to convince my stubborn heart.And this feeling was troubling me a lot.I just want to UNLOVE her....an illusive word which is very useful but still not invented. The only way out was to hear it from her in a rude way......and the same i intentionally asked her to say....I asked her to hurt my heart so badly so that it will never fall in this trap again....and exactly the same she did...

wht d hell i m doing....

reality is alwys half d expectation....my case is no exception...sitting in d office with d eyes stuck at terminal bt mind wandering sm where else...is this wht m made for...wht tangible thing m i doing...m no better dan a slave, solving issues for my master sitting outside...den suddenly d other side of mind interrupts...hello sir dis earns u ur living..y nt paying d loyality...so wht!! i hav my aspiations too.....wht gud i m doing 2 my country...my people...my place...cmon dont be sentimental..be practical man!!!mind interupts again.....when i wil be old...sitting at d chair.... luking at d rising sun wid d tea in hand nd trying to retrieve d memory of d past....wht i m getting is nthing bt d big NULL!!!!d sole idea of dis shivers my whole body......watch indicates its tym to leave nw....mind ws never dere..its tym to move physically.....dis is d way ma professional lyf going....